Social media killed the cat but mental strength brought it back
wait, that did sound cool, I’m typing it again.
Social media killed the cat but mental strength brought it back!*
No, I don’t know what that means but it sounds cool and meaningful, so, there it is.
On to the real stuff,
I, like many other people, spend a whole lot of time on my phone.
Be it staring at messages that fear left unread on Whats-App (this is a story for another time) or, my personal favorite, digging through books on Wattpad (If you’re reading this, and you’re on Wattpad, drop your username, lets follow each other!). I used to check and rely on social media so much, it almost broke me.
Now, I needed some time to create ,so, I gave myself the right to get rid of two major factors leading to my lack of sleep, wavering concentration and social anxiety; Whats-App and Instagram.
The first few days were difficult as I found that I had withdrawal symptoms; I’d pick up my phone to pass time and then freak out when I realized when IG wasn’t there, I felt like i needed these applications to feel whole and that’s when I realized that I was Addicted.
I was addicted to scrolling through people’s posts on Instagram and bringing myself down mentally because these were so effortlessly perfect. I was addicted to routinely opening my WhatsApp to see if anyone had sent me a message then closing it ASAP because I had no idea how to carry on that conversation (am I the only one who can’t carry on conversations with more than about 6 people at a time? It sure seems that way).
I was addicted to bringing my self-esteem levels down and listening to people criticize my personality.
After days of sulking, I accepted that only I could help myself.
I threw myself into keeping my hands and mind occupied and to grow myself as an individual.
My month-long journey of self discovery was wonderful, I saw the world through my own eyes, had conversations that mattered and I took pictures for myself without thinking of how many likes it would get me, I even started this blog! I came out stronger and happier than I’d been in a long while.
I had to re-download those applications eventually for school information and a better way of communication, and I have accepted that some people will not want to understand who I am as a person and Instagram is not a measure of a happy life. I have come to accept that these numbers don’t matter and some people’s opinions just don’t count.
Social media doesn’t control my mind, I do.
*(No cats were harmed in the thought-process of this post)
Has anyone else ever taken a break from social media? Why did you do it? HOW DID YOU COPE?!, sorry. What did you learn?